The reality is that you showed me a part of myself that I never knew existed
An important part of my being, it had been awhile. I truly missed it.
You tapped into my being in an uncanny kinda way.
In the beginning things were great, I can acknowledge that. I won’t hate.
You opened up my mind to a love that at one point was a memory
A love that I hadn’t expected to feel at this point, you made me take love seriously.
Layer by layer, I was comfortable being naked in front of you.
The discomfort in being myself was never relevant when I was with you.
As time pressed on, I felt you becoming quite distant
It was like the passion that you once encompassed was becoming resistant.
I tried to figure it out, wanting us to find ways to make it work
But time and time again, I allowed your resistance to allow me to hurt.
I continued to fight for what we used to have, hoping things would get better
I just wanted us back on track, however it began to feel like unwanted pressure.
But after months and months of trying, time had finally run its course
It showed me that it just wasn’t our time to collectively move forward
And while for a long time, it definitely hurt me to my core
But I’ve learned my value, gained my peace and your rejection hurts no more
When things were great, trust me they were great and I regret absolutely none of it
You taught me a lot about myself, about love and I certainly enjoyed all of it
Hindsight is the best sight and there’s no regret around
I am moving forward with my head held high, my peace of mind and my newly adjusted crown.
-Monisa MasonÂ
Your crown has been bought and paid for. All you must do is put it on. -James Baldwin
